traces of my life

2008-06-09T18:53:00.003+08:00

Here's blogging about my Germany trip.
Thanks to Mrs Low, i had the chance to get onto this trip!
i really appreaciate it and no if i ever go overseas again, i wouldn't ever get lost esp in that shopping district.
and ps. it's not becos of shopping that i got lost.
Me and Zhiwei got so engrossed in our conversation. HAHA.
ok.
Here goes.
Day 1
I arrived late cause i was toking to ken late into the night about stuffs.
i mean at the airport of cos. shucks damn paiseh I was the last one they were waiting for us to check in.
ps Lauren!
errm. 1st 2 hours was okay. but wait till the 11 hour flight to Munich. OMG.
OH YEA we had to wait for 3 hours before boarding the flight to munich.
and boy, we were almost late for the flight. and i rmb-ed telling my mum.
boy was she mad. there are some things you shouldn't tell parents this i realise.
OH OK.
erm. oh great. it's thai airways. and there's no flight entertainment system.
GREAT RIGHT.
11 hours. what do we do?... i was missing someone. and it hurts me.
ok. erm. well well. err. ok now i'm getting lost in my thoughts.
me and lauren did homework. talked. looked out into those clouds. beautiful!... oh and this uploading of photos suck. have to wait so long.
hmmm. oh yea. we had 30 hours of 27th may. well you would know what i mean if you're a frequent flyer. oh ok. errr we had supper in this antique chinese restaurant den we were off to bed.
and singapore's time was 5am plus that day. but we were like 11 plus?. yar.
it was pretty cosy even though there wasn't any air-con.-.-.

i'm lazy i'll blog about day 2 some other day. HEEX.

2008-04-01T21:09:00.002+08:00

life sucks

when people have things you don't.

when you deserve it more than people.

when you have strict parents.

when the world is unfair.

when people do things that hurt you so badly.

in every way, in every possible period of time they could.

when they just have nothing better to do!

when you feel so lousy. and pissed.

when stress just gets into your way all the time.

when people just don't appreaciate you.

when you are gaining weight.

when you have classes from 8am right to 7pm.

when you feel like d. a.

2008-03-25T12:19:00.002+08:00

here i am blogging.
during school hours. actually as a matter of fact cos my feet hurts.
Who will ever know this pain? More specifically, who in the School will actually know this pain?
Shit. DrX wouldn't give me an MC. Now I'm stuck with facing Mr Leong and his face.
Shucks. What if he doesn't accept calling them and confirming i actually went for an apptmt on thurs?

sigh.Maths have been bogging me down. I hate("Don't like" does that make that better)Mathemetical Induction. That needs constant practice. But the mere though of doing it again makes me feel a wave of overwhelming stress. YJC-ians should know it..

Oh btw, I am actually a Quality Time Person. Ok. That's how i give LOVE.! haha.
I'm so tired. and pissed of those numerous guys in my class. at least there's no gossiping girls la.

but hormonally-raging guys everywhere. not a good thing still.

this push song chorus is so cool..

push push back up on it... hehe

erm. time to do binomial theorem. and ....

2008-03-07T14:48:00.002+08:00

lalala. Life is getting hectic now.
I'm sinking into YJC's life, and like... gosh lectures after lectures after lectures. I'm glad I got into YJC cos if I got into Innova, or Serangoon or Nanyang... I doubt ppl there would be as friendly as ppl here. And yes! the teachers are helpful... except for a handful some. Like my teacher. Only teacher that sucks for my form teacher.

Anyway, I have plenty of hw for next week. I have 3 days full of bridging classes and I need to accomodate my sweet loving VIRAL WART I've had for months and months.
freaking it. Just burn it off LA!!!!!!!!! BUT FREAKING BURN IT OFF ALSO DIDN'T HELP.

I even went to a specialist along orchard rd... and they charged my dad like wat... $214!.. it better not grow back! freaking thing.

I'm sick of YOU.

oh yea. and blardy homework is on the way. Ok gtg. for Geog Lecture. Plus chalet later.

2008-02-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

ok.

didn't post pictures for like a long time..

cos i didn't want my love defined by my blog.

ya. that's particularly the reason. Anyways, a lot of things has happened recently. Like how i'm feelin weirdly(no, it shouldn't be weirdly) messed-up about my o-level grades.

I saw sth from Meifong's blog that gave me enough motivation to go on. I saw my friendster profile and glance at a few comments. There were those comments praising me for those advices i've given to my friends, or more so, aquatainces(wth, how do u spell this). Anyway, was i even good enough to give them advices when I'm so dowdy myself.

and now i'm blogging halfway, bloody sheryl gave me all the sarcastic remarks.

HAH! YOU HAVEN'T SEEN MY ABILITY, how i can do this so much better than you.
but obviously, sheryl, you are fully aware, that I've done so much of those just sitting beside you for approx 2 years.. that you would just go "argh......" whenever you can't lose the BATTLE. admit it SHERYL, i'm stronger than you. GOSH! when will you ever get that through your head? STOP BEING A SORE LOSER. HAH!

but i know so... that even if you see this blog post, I know that you will so really MISS me.. I CAN'T HELP IT THAT YOU'RE SO ATTRACTED BY IT RIGHT... don't mention it. =p

anyway. i wun miss anyone... except maybe Mr Lee.
Gosh. there are enough sickening people, eg MR PEK, that sickening grin, with that sickening perky ****, that bimbotic SHERYL has laughed at me for all this time. WHY ARE PEOPLE'S BUTT ALWAYS LIKE ATTRACTED TO MY FACE OR STH..? ahh... it just so happen that i happened to look past their butts right...

LAST OF ALL,
DON'T SHOW OFF YOUR SKINNY ARMS AND LEGS IN FRONT OF PEKKY OK... and... be sure to wear extra shorts under your mini skirt, cos... HAHA... you don't want anybody to see anything from under when you walk down the stairs..

=p i won.

2008-01-29T22:27:00.000+08:00

this is really terrible. I spent like 150 in 2 weeks from my edusave.

how terrible is that. looks like i'm really spendthrift.

I bought a bag for sch, anklet, 2 really exp earrings, bracelet, shirt. and etc.
!!!

oh i have to share this.

I met a really hot guy in Bugis St today.Gosh, he's mixed like me.
really!
Chinese-Indian... wow. perfect for me! HAHA!
He's looks like the asian kind of Zac Efron with the exact body frame if you were to really compare. hmm. Those contact lenses as I stared into the eyes. I whispered to jialin that he was really handsome ... and guess what happens.
That fat promoter actually told HIM that, in front of me.. like threatening to tell HIM. You don't know how much i wanted to bury my face at that point of time. And he kept repeating it! Saying that i wanted to get his number. OMG!

But Jialin was pretty serious about getting his number! OK?!!!

He looks like Caucasian mixed with like.. allah knows what... wow. those eyes... HAH!

and boy.. that promoter actually dun believe i'm mixed.

I'M MIXED. CHINESE WITH MALAY BLOOD! I HAVE THE GENES OF BOTH INDONESIA AND CHINA!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

i wish i looked for mixed, like really exotic.. instead of most ppl actually saying that i look chinese.

I ACTUALLY LOOK MIXED OK!! HMPH. I SO AM!!!!

2008-01-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

I haven't blogged for a long time.
I have this fetish for thai songs. Probably because of the addicted visit to thailand.
And i know that it's because of who. xD
Back to the topic, Just a brief talk about Parents, I just finally realised that actually the reason for my parents' weired behaviour is because their thinking is too old-fashioned. PERIOD OK.
I didn't do well as I thought in O Levels. Now i realise someone is a jinx. And true kinda, **** is a jinx. I should never have joined it. With the couple of bastards with it, they will rot in hell. I have no doubt about that suckers.
anyway, I have massively disappointed my parents. I know they have high expectations on me. I know. But when they finally spill the beans which they try to stay cool about it. I cried. I know. I know. I should have expected it. I should have known.

Don't you think I am not embarassed.? After all the speech, massive spending on assessment books, and so much of confidence(maybe over they said?) and so much more expectations from my over-achiever aunts and uncles and aunties... Ain't I facing more pressure?

And God, I have to face them this CNY celebrations.
Imagine the kind of disgusted look they will give me. I have enough of the negative comments of me in front and behind me. I am NOT A RAFFLES GIRL. I dont earn 10k a month.

THOUGH, IT'S PARTLY DUE TO THEM, I SWEAR I WILL GET ROUGHLY THAT AMOUNT IN FUTURE.

I even get into AJ, my dream sch. The shame, of facing my pri school teacher who has so stepped me beneath his feet.. is true.. is there.

I know I am not stupid. I know the freaking admin stuff who did my grades must have been too lazy to key in my grades. WHAT INEFFICIENCY.

i worked my butts off for this paper. and i dun even get a 10 pointer.

so what am I? a freaking shit who acts smart or what.

I know nobody can help me. I know nobody can console me even to the point that I will recover. I know that finally I'm useless. I still want to thank Mr Lee.

He played a big part in my life. I don't even mind spending a more expensive gift to you. Cos my gratitude is never-ending. I've never met a teacher who's more gifted. It's the students who let him down. The students who made potential teachers-to-come hesitate on taking on this career. I will never forget him. Trust me on that.

If I cannot fulfil his dream, then, pray that his children will become as aspiring and smart. 'Cos their father is a living legend in my life.

YouYouYou, I am going to forget you. I am sick of spending my freaking youth spoiling my grades because of you. You are just a bastard(and literally yes) who recovered from your slimming and now you are just someone who's insecure... who's looking for ppl to leech to you. Who I love, my brother, has actually lived long ago, and died. He's there no more. I have no confidence of changing you. Nor, do i care. I just want to live my precious life. and i just can't be bothered even if you are worst than a bastard for the rest of your life.

YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. AND I'M NOT GOING TO THINK OF ANY POSSIBILITIES. NON-EXISTENT NO MORE.

=)

i am so over it. katherine mcphee.

2008-01-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

YAY LAST DAY OF WORK!

OK. partying time for 2 wks before heading back to -cries- SCHOOL!

PRAY PRAY TO ALLAH.

GUARANTEE ME MY 10-11 POINTS!

HEADING TO SP AND TP TMR FOR OPENHOUSE. LOL. HMM. THEY'VE GOT DANCE TMR AT TP LOL.

GIMME THUMBDRIVES!

CRAZY IN LOVE.

SO CRAZY MY BABY. I'M NOT MYSELF...
HAHA.. AND MAYBE URE MAKING A FOOL OF ME!..
HHAHA

CRAZINESS.

2008-01-10T18:46:00.000+08:00

where should i start.
got a lecture from my supervisor today.
totally not funny ok, to all my "enemies".
i don't know whether to trust my dad or Mr Siva, is that P&C dept as detestable as it is, as lazy as it is.. or is it just that they always have a never-ending pile of work to do?
i don't know what i'm upset about. Am i being confused or sth?..
i never got scolded by mrs sim, nor almost any teachers. always known for being SO guai in school.
hah. do u guys really think i'm so guai? or is it becos i dun dare to do anything bad becos my mood is easily affected by a simple mistake or scolding?

whats wrong with being hardworking man? HUH?!
damnnit.
damn, i did so many cases. and totally disliked the way Samsiah treated me. I'm only Temp ok. not like some kind of perm staff there. I'm only paid 50 bucks a day. What you expect...

and i'm not up to that calibre of finishing 180 cases per day like that poly freak.
or is it becos i do toomuch of soul searching.?

darn. i'm almost able to forget it. but why did u keep coming back.
u make my feelings worst and confused. sometimes i don't know whether u did it out of spite or real.

2007-12-30T10:43:00.000+08:00

woohoo!came back from Jakarta last christmas eve and totally lazy to blog...

then days before found out that widjaja going there! so cooll... so wanna meet him!
haha.. too bad he's gg to surabaya first.
argh.
anws, i wore green on the first day so kinda attracted a lot fo attention.... and i mean LIME GREEN!... haha.
ok.so.. we stayed at Pan pacific... though as i see it... i would prefer Hyatt hotel.
It was like that trip to Beijing.. and we had to endure the traffic jam before making it to town... it was beautiful with monuments right in the centre of a merry-go-round...( is that the proper word???). Ok. And of cos, my dad was hungry for food and we got cheated of 40 bucks. URGH. driver's commission you know? Go shopping was next... yay. shop shop... oooo... hmm. actually was quite late when we came out.. so we went nearby, and boy was the prices way high ok.. like singapore's orchard rd pricing. extravagant. no no... this is not the right word.. another shopping mall more of it. Ok. ans. 3rd day went to Bandung through train. Really ancient train like what I saw.... Their so called Mee Rebus was actually literally Mee Rebus, like boiling the mee or sth.. and wala!.. they presented me with maggie mee. -_-" Anw, i was hungry so it tasted pretty good.. But urgh... you know the place was really like a small town.. and most unexpectedly, the big traffic jam!... It's worst than in Jakarta! I thought it was just a quiet town situated in the mountains or sth... but nah so wrong. Anyways, It took us approx 45 min to reach the so called shopping district. Really like Phuket kinda pasar malam... really miss those days by the beach.. and walking into the area reminds me of bukit tinggi resort(in malaysia)... so british kinda shophouses... really changes the impression of this town man..! It's a shopping heaven! With, factory outlets and sales and t-shirts costing from 2-3 bucks(the cheap ones)... but of cos, the prices cannot be compared to Bangkok!... nah uh...

And yes, they do have a high-class Starbucks sorta thing. OO.... forgot to say, they have plenty of fast-food outlets in Jakarta, KFC aplenty, Pizzahut, .... and there's this Ooh La La cafe.. darn funny. So... back.. they had this accesorise(pardon me for my english) store selling all sorts of diff kinds of super adorable stuffs!.... really nice la! I wanna buy everything!.. and clothes.. and makeup... and I bought an adidas trackpants...yay!

SO. hmmm. everything was short... most of our time was caught in the darn traffic jam! really la..I fell asleep on the way to the restaurant ... and when I woke up... we're still darn stuck in the traffic jam.. and it's been an hour! It's not like the town is big... it's darn small ok!... it's a hill.. kind ... so all kinds of vehicles, motorcycles everything had to follow one road. Terrible.. in the end.. we had to skip dinner and rush to the train station to secure our seats before anything else... I don't wanna stay here... and end up paying 100 over dollars in Jakarta for one night we didn't stay in the hotel! Anyway, Bandung had lousy hotels. So we went nearby to eat after we knew that our train ride was one hour later.

And yes, we gave away our old clothes, quite sentimental really.
hmm. So, this store.. urgh. lots of flies. BIG ones!... can't help it.
Train ride was worst... i'd tell you when we came back.. I saw the kitchen... Boy.. it was like the ermm... rations kind of cooking in NP... no bloody hygiene... everything was left there. Not washed! urgh.. somemore.. they still had this menu to ask for food orders. Pls la.

hmm ..then... it was dark... not a picture taking sorta spirit... hmm. saw a lot of lampost lights. quite boring yet hmm. romantic. everybody was minding their own business. well.. actually... We had to pass through some really high bridges before coming to Bandung.. and the same way back... the thought of doing that... but not seeing where you are.. all in pitch black is really eerie..

so.. anws.. we went to this newly open mall.. the newer more modern version of ngee ann city... with high ceilings and everything... and the prices are all higher than in paragon la! eek!

ok.. anw. I'm signing up for courses. can't wait! I get another freelance parttime job after i stop work tmr.

2007-12-16T08:31:00.000+08:00

urgh... finally after about 2 weeks.. started blogging again.
been running to gym. met a lot of hunks. LOL.
ok. HAHA. anyway.. hmm. job getting more and more boring 'cause there are lesser and lesser bkgs done nowadays.. all done in previous mths.

so bored. everyday have to wear skirts. put up with that smelly old man.
yucky.
hmm. should i take law, business IT, or sciences?

hmm. still thinking. should go for the republic poly openhouse today.
urgh. when my dad gonna let me use my salary? DARN!...
next time when you find jobs, be sure not to find those that let you deposit ure cash in ure bank account.
so miserable. controlled by my dad.

TSK. oo.. and i'm looking forward to being a relief teacher. i wished this hol will last longer. anyway, need to attend a wedding later. (wedding of a chinese and muslim)... yipee!. can't wait!...

boredness. oo.. and i'm leaving for indon on thurs. hari raya haji. yayness. gonna buy lotsa clothes. !!!!!! Bargain like mad!

blurgh. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

tata.

2007-11-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

been busy with work.
8-5 pm work.
but best thing. is the air-con's freezing cold.
EVEN COLDER THAN OUR SCHOOL!
and there's a free drinks vending machine!...
yea.
hot milo everyday!

one bad thing. formal wear everyday= spend money on clothes.

need to sleep early to beat the traffic jam tmr.

ok for now..=)

2007-11-16T21:53:00.000+08:00

whole squad's photo

kaixun the flasher

eating yummy dinner

me, joan, shida and shaun

Shidah and Illyana(the emo) LOL

ARGH. SHAUN. spoilt my appetite

mr ang and alumnis.

Sec 4s and Mr ang!

WOOHOO! TODAY'S POP!...
NICE. ONLY PART I DIDN'T LIKE WAS THAT OUR VIDEO WAS TOO SHORT... HMM.
but thanks anw sec 3s.. i love the fonts.-strikes evil grin-

so here goes. upload the rest later

2007-11-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

aren't we photogenic?

SHE'S REALLY QUICK AT POSING~!

i guess this is the only pose i look better in...=(

SO EXCITED YTD.
after jialin finished her exams...

she called me right away... haha! pretty astonished as she would hardly call me on my phone. She was so high... which got me really excited about going out!...

So... i told her that i would meet her near my house's bus stop...

and we would go to cineleisure.. BOY...
can u believe that i haven't been to that place for a year!...
aiyo...

but anyway the receptionist at kbox was so friendly...
unlike the one at level 8. so stuck-up.

and as usual i was so excited.
and also sung until my voice ah... u know...
so. here goes.

POST-O-LVLS

2007-11-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

ok I'm like super happy right now. the last post was like last june,
O LVLS IS OVER BABY!
waited so long. mugged so hard( and wish it will pay off a lot) and endured numerous thoughts of strong desires for SHOPPING!

and now!
haha... i want to lose weight. get into kbox. watch movies. go super crazy with my girlfriends. get a bf(haha erm no of cos)... what else.
oh yea. learn taekwondo. have gatherings. learn korean, jap, thai.
take countless neoprints.

this holidays I'm gonna be that lair,crazy woman instead of that industrious nerd in sch!

darn! i can't wait!

when i came home ytd. i was like so...
and please don't talk to me about my papers. don't ask me questions.
i don't wanna know.
all i know is that i just wanna burn those books, get a life, and work my butt out for those cash, baby!

this is so like that post psle-syndrome!

oh yea oh yea.

ok so... i found ads on takashimaya, konikuniya,starbucks, coffee company, lemongrass restaurant. oh ... and i want to teach tuition. toO!

erm. hmm. what else?
oh i'm visiting korea soon. oh yea!. my RAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
erm erm.. den i'm prob gonna go back to anderson to have relief teaching and share my plentiful stories about the school with those kiddos.

Take lots of pictures during POP with my npcc buddies. and enjoy life.
but i seriously consider against having a boyfriend.
no.

LALALALALALA~
I'M going out late later in the evening. and shop till we drop
i can hardly wait!

and i haven't uploaded pic for a long time.

2007-06-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

sigh.
os is coming. haven't been to orchard rd in a long time.

2007-06-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

i think i'm gonna gain weight le la...
i ate macs last mon.
ytd. today.
argh... and i was counting the amount of calories...
anyways...
so went studying in macs with jialin.
studied till 10pm... quite enjoyable la... i like it... except the eating part.
it's like you would never fail to eat whenever food is displayed in front of you...
and then luckily we chose the mac that has few people... unlike the one in northpoint... CHAOTIC!.
it was just trying. but i need time to lose that weight off.
anyway. today had the oral. to me. total failure. gosh. too confident. argharghargh.
but still no pics for now guys. oh ya...
i know people love to see pics on other's blogs.. ...

...

2007-05-31T23:37:00.001+08:00

ICE'S CUTE!

2007-05-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

THE SONG, LYRICS DEMONSTRATES HOW I'M FEELING NOW
FOR ALL YOU SUCKERS WHO ARE CURSING ME NOW, GET LOST.

Saturday, steppin' into the club
The music make me wanna tell the DJ 'turn it up'
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop movin' to the sound
But I can't tell that you're watchin' me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?
Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do I just wanna be me,
I don't understand
why Would you wanna bring me down if I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life (not the way you want me to)
CHORUS: I'm tired of rumors startin'
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lyin'
Sayin' what they want to about me
Why can't they back up off me?
Why can't they let me live?
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is
So here we are back up in the club
People takin' pictures
Don't you think they get enough?
I just wanna move all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to the beat like (What)
I gotta say respectfully I would love it if you took the cameras off of me
Cause I just need a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy?
Why can't you just let me do the things I wanna do I just wanna be me,
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down if I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life (not the way you want me to)
REPEAT CHORUS I just need to free my mind (my mind)
Just wanna dance and have a good time
I'm tired of rumors (rumors)
Followed (followed, followed, followed) Followed, what they want of me
Why can't they (they, they, they, they ,they) let me live
Take this for just what it is
REPEAT CHORUS X2

2007-05-26T07:01:00.000+08:00

okay.. i got back my results today...
went for the parent-teacher meeting and darn... i cried again...
i can't help it okay... ms kaur always use that soft tone on me.... how can I?...
anyway.... a lot of things happened ytd...
someone did something to spite me... and no ... i wun cry on the parade square... no... i wun... that's what he wanted to see ain't it...
thats not impt....
but anyway thanks to all who tried to cool me down... pohee. thanks loads...even with that small small encouragement... i really appreaciate it..
okay... now... for results wise... i dropped in my class position... but at least i'm still in the top 10....
hmm.. i'm trying to relax okay... tsk dunno what to do....

u wun see the last of me ... guys....

2007-05-23T19:43:00.000+08:00

err. okay responding to susan...
oooo... finally someone who asked me to update.
rather lazy la.
anyway...
i'm gonna go for meet the parents session today.
i don't wanna cry again.
i remember the last time what pekpek and ms kaur said to be last time...
their comments were so unexpected i cried.
ok. i shouldn't say what they said. if u wanna know. ask me.
but it's really funny. gosh now i remember again... i cried in front of my mum.
and yes the last time when i did it in front of the whole sec 4s.

anyways. i changed my blogskin again.
i keep changing.
very hard to find one that really suits me. my personality. this one kinda suits. red, bubbly. but i have a feeling i will change it again.

anyway... sec 4G went for a peranakan outing today. quite interesting. i miss orchard rd.... i remember the countless times i went for shopping in far east plaza. awww. and shaun and his OTHER gang was so noisy la. singing all the songs when we departed from the peranakan shop. PLEASE. you're hurting my ears. anyway. yay! blahblahblah. hmmm...

oh yay.. i saw this open area near the spices garden on fort canning that they have impt events there.... WEDDINGS! suddenly at the moment, i've got this sudden thing that i want to have my wedding there!... isn't it the perfect place? rather den having it at some hotel.. where people would think you are extravagant and wasteful and you need to be so prim and proper in front of VIPs haha... I'm so gonna have relations with such people next time... or maybe corridors which are OH-so-common... (malay traditional wedding)... or even community centres... that would make a wonderful wedding place... awww... look at the grass... we could lay on the grass... and watch the stars... or even have this special video of our journey... shit am i imagining too much...

but girls out there... wouldn't u want something like that...
and boys... dun say i'm pervertic or whatever... i'm giving u a hint on how to romance ure girlfriend.. but sorry this idea taken! COPYRIGHT!
=P

i suddenly remember just now to apply for the ndp parade tickets and i just found out when we were on the highway to east coast that the national day parade in held on this floating thingy... and wow. the scenery there towards the sky would be damn awesome. i haven't gone for a real ndp parade. ok... hope some terrorists don't bomb the place ... oops. okay okay jkjk.

2007-05-13T10:58:00.000+08:00

MID YEAR EXAMS.

coming to an end of mid yr exams.
oh. my physics. okay. i dun think i will get an A1 for this paper anyways.
the rest?.... not much hope. argh. i so feel i didn't put in much effort in studying for all this. plus the extra 2 long weeks of sch in june hols.

overseas break gone.
and i feel so guilty for stopping my religious classes.
yuck i wish i didnt live in this world sometimes.

2007-04-23T21:04:00.000+08:00

i'm so full.
haha. i didnt noe i typed that too.
anyway. sigh.
i saw the new of mbk shopping mall's jap shop caught fire.
i was so shocked i can't believe i saw that news.
how is he. i just wanna ask. will be still be on the job. i will come back.i will definitely. why does this have to be the o level yr. i wish he's okay. i miss him so.
i'm really worried.

2007-04-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

ahh. so sad.
today is sports day ... and i got in for javelin and 4x400m relay race.
damnnit.
javelin was not impt.
worst was relay race....
the first girl could actually get in the 2nd person and do well....
but!
she dropped till 4th person....
thankfully i was able to maintain... though i must admit to being lousy and not catching up!...
anyway.. it was really very upsetting... i thought i could get my first running medal for my entire life.
yiluan did really well. keep hearing her name.
wait.. was she the sports girl for her division? don't know.
hmm.

oh ya. later on i went shopping with yee may and jia lin.
saw a lot of things that was lovely.

yee may spent a bomb on her clothes. while i bought something although pretty common but a name shirt. ok la. better quality ok yee may...
anyways.
sigh. den i bought presents for my parents.
argh dun wanna tok about it.

anyways. just wanna say o lvls is coming.
i'm still aiming for AJC. though i pretty would love to go to the AEP in NYJC.
but i dun like affliated schs.
i MUST do well. and i will.

2007-03-11T09:33:00.000+08:00

wow. this has indeed been a long term... or should i say stressful one... my report slip sucks.. and shaun's got the 1st position...(i'm not jealous).. it's just that... why should such a person get the 1st position.. i'd rather someone who is more on surface... hardworking.. and definitely not crappy in class. okay. but anyways. i didn't drop in grades like super much... just quite a lot in rank..

anyways. that day.. the guys around me... was cracking their brains to guess what rank i was in... awww... try harder yea.. guys?. anyways. sheryl was totally making a clown outa them. super funny.i went for the parents-teaching meeting. mr pek was there!... that ego-centric maths teacher!. so. i had to sit in front of him!.. den. eh. ms kaur asked me... your english is getting bad... esp your grammar..blahblahblah... (asked me what rank i was last yr and this yr and i answered)you look tired... and you did all your work.. what is wrong with you? i was like huh? isn't it good I'm doing your work?...
they started asking me what time i sleep... what time and date my tuition starts... blahblahblah... and the whole conversation lasts for an hour on asking me not to overwork and to slack for the whole march hols?.... errr. ok..?.so well.i cried okay i cried. i can't help it right... mr pek started giving me this so-concerned look of his... and it's so unexpected, judging from the way he treats me in class. i thought they would, like.. tell me good and bad results.

and... but the worst part of it all... was my dad... pouring out all his negative feedback when i reached home.. after i was balanced and confident enough to absorb wat was happening...

damnnit.

oh ya.. anws. i can't go to bangkok this holiday!. SICK!

I WANNA SEE. MY... AH!!!!!

2007-02-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

okay. here goes my mood swing again.

i just had a yummy buffet at hyatt just now.
i noe it's ex- la. but after it's cny. and my dad didn't spend money on ny clothes onme=D!!
oh yum!!!
when i walked in, we saw cool dishes, like fresh mussels, crabs, and so much more. there were different sorts of soups. they was jap food, thai food, ang moh food. beef, raw and cooked. fish, chicken, veg and most imptly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
desserts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
okay let me emphasize on the thai food. the tom yum food! oh yes, the chicken was so soft!!! so tantalizing. so yummy! esp when we were the food for the lunch buffet! there was plenty of chicken in that erm... whats that called?... and as i scraped out the chicken, no justlifted out the scoop from the bottom of the "whats that called"... my mouth starts to water at the sight of the chicken gleaming under the yellow light

erm i'm too excited, pardon me for my eng.

anw, still, however, i always had in mind, that i must eat in proportion. I didnt take any rice(thankfully, anyway, i dun think i saw any.) green curry chicken, asparagus(one of my fav veg)... and fish nuggets, dipped in those yummy sauce. YUM. well. what else. ew..and i took the corn soup. though it's not to my liking, but i must remind myself, it's healthy and taste full of corn.
yum.
what i dun like about the service is, the waiter kept taking away my plates and bowls before i finished it! what the hell.!!! i'm just left with half the bowl. stupid indian man. not that i wanna be racist or anything. but it reminds me of his face!...
anyways.the dessert was yum. i dished out the dessert first. and i saw yummy cakes of all varieties!
walnut cakes. cakes and nuts and kiwi laid on top of it, mango cake with those juice gleaming on the top layer of the cake, with orange(real ones, actually, i think it's tangerines. small versions) on top of it.... moreover,,, there are a few with berries. den there were choc cakes. which looks so yummy.
i took that kiwi cake halfway when i was eating proper food.

den it was the real thing now.
yummy, biscuits, strawberries,pineapples,grapes, in metal sticks.
and beside it lay a choc fountain!!!!!!
omg!
boy, was it tantalizing when i dipped my strawberries into that choc fountain!
oh yum. and what i cannot believe was there was ice-cream, strawberry, choc, and vanilla. and i grabbed the choc one!
and took some choc sauce(deep brown and thick) and circled it around on top of the choc ice-cream.
oh yum!
heavenly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok enuff of this dreaming. once i've earned my first pay... i'll kicked their doors down and drown myself in this heavenly place. lol no la. poor service.

anyways.
i didn't wanna go home so early.
my aunts wanna watch the protege.
speaking of it, i read a book called "the protege" a few weeks ago, and hmm. i forgot whether it was similar to this movie. didn't really remember the content.
okays.
so. it was about louis koo and daniel wu(2 hot guys). surprisingly though, louis koo emerged as the guy with the bucktooth. hah! remind me of lim jian boon! okays.heex. with the dirty pair of teeth. lol. but the zhang jingchun. i rmb it vaguely that she was somewhat intro. by stephen chow as the new jay chou(when he was intro by ( who's that guy again)...).
anyways. okay haha/ it was nc16. hee!
anyway.err. it was rather scary, with the slashing of hand and all those screaming, and all those rats biting the drug addict(zhang jingchun) body and bloodflowing down her face.. okay. eww.

home sweet home.
time to do hw. but i'm so tired. can i not do. i wanna sleep and watch tv and eat tangerines all day long.

2007-02-17T08:33:00.000+08:00

words of fury

life i can say is a misery.
today is cny's eve.
and yet. i've gotten into huge trouble.
That mushroom soup my dad boiled in the morning.
due to my ignorance, i reboiled again.
the whole blardy thing overflowed.
which caused a massive mess.
i told my dad, i've got sth to confess to you.
and yet, he seemed to suddenly knew what i did.
soon, it was both parents attacking me, verbally.
i remembered how my mum pointed her finger at me, behind the window.
dat image so distinctively.
what is that speech for. a waste of time?
i regret it now.
my mum said i purposely pretended to be deaf.

how mentally torn i was when she said that.

so i decided to be deaf.
even after she shouted at me from 3 floors below.
what can i do?

2007-02-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

got nothing to do. so decided to blog.
anyways. my fingers aching for some typing.
hmm.'
ahh.
i wish i dun meet so much obstacles whenever i study...
okays. i will study after i'm done with this. bored man.
tmr cny celebrations in school. boring. bet it's nth much la.
anyways. i have this tuition test in toa payoh tmr.
argh
so boring la.
can't seem to have time to myself. even no motivation to study
arggh
listen to gary. u can do it. rmb last yr. chayo!=)))

2007-02-15T20:33:00.000+08:00

i lurve confident guys.xD

2007-02-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

we had an adam khoo learning technologies workshop ytd. It was great, just plain great.
the last session, the opening ceremony was one i found most worthwhile and most impt.
the 2nd day, Gary(the oh-so-charismatic guy) told us a story about his grandmother. He really cried, and the look on his face, the pain, i can really tell he's telling from the bottom of his heart. Everyone fell silent. Den we had this crying session. Everyone, including the boys were crying, only some heartless creatures. Seriously, at first, all the things gary told us, i've thought of them before. However, he drove into a more depressed and sad scenario for us. I couldn't help but cried. Sheryl was sobbing like mad. I understand her situation. Someone from the end of the lecture theatre was also crying so hard. I couldn't help but had to cry along with them. However, My eyes hurt so much, i couldnt cry anymore. i really couldn't. It hurts. From a double-eyelid girl, I become a single-eyelid girl. HAHAHA.

so the next day. w were taught to combine all the things were had learnt into good use. You know, whats so great about this motivational workshop. There are mature guy lecturers and there's music(and i mean pop music) all the way from the start(when we entered the lecture theatre on the first day) till the end of the 3 day workshop. wow it rawks la. oops... forgot to look for the music they told us to. hmm. i'll start finding now.
anyways.. last night was the most memorable one.
we had this goofy guy called danny.. though i find gary more interesting, toking to the straight-faced parents all about how to treat kids.. there was a lot of interaction between us and our parents..
i went upstage, along with my brave friends, doreen, xiuhui and so on.
i talked and talked about my grandmother. seriously, if my mum had taught me proper malay, i wouldn't be like an idiot now. haha.
i really regret a lot. But hey. i can understand malay very well. so if u wanna bad-mouth me, do it very far okay?

sighh.
snorees. i'm so tired. sorry, i skipped religious classes today. i'm really tired.

2007-01-24T17:58:00.000+08:00

today had a bad day in school. wasn't very happy. but was glad i could go home early cos i have no remedial to complete my homework and revise. or not i will die from the continuous amount of tests. esp that mr pek. nvm... the mention of him makes my blood boil.
argh. den today when i came back had a very fierce quarrel with my mum over a small thing. still very pissed now.
gotta do my homework and revise and go jogging later. have to maintain.
hmmm. hope have more free periods tmr. tmr's there's ss lecture again.
stupid lim jian boon. if you ever see this entry, you better return me my air ticket, my file full of np stuff and my nyaa booklet. everytime take my things never return... no wonnderrr..... .... i wun say any longer. stupid lim jian boon.

2007-01-21T07:53:00.000+08:00

wow. So lucky...!
I've gt a new hp and a brand new ****** ytd!
yays!
thanks daddy!
weellsss... must work hard for o levels!
another contradicting question... should i go to poly or jc... after that ngee an poly trip...
i realized they've got a lot of things to offer...
and people do better going the poly route then to the U.
but that would mean you have to know what job you want and everything after your o levels...
i dunno...
maybe i want that Business Course... or that Tourism section...
I dunno!
which one can earn biggger bucks...?
i wun like to be a lawyer.. cos... who knows your client is the guilty one... and you're like helping him! I'll have a guilty consicence forever... by the way, i watched this show where the lawyer actually use evidence against her lawyer...crazy right?!!!! dun wanna be a doctor... esp a surgeon...
what else can earn bigger bucks???
gimme some of your opinions!
i

2007-01-13T10:19:00.000+08:00

he looked at me as if it was ruk raek pop,
hua jai kong pom ben kong koon
koon keu kon nun tee pom ror
koon kit teung pom mai

pom dtong gan pop koon!
missed him so much.
anways. we had a lot of fun in np ytd... was playing this game with my squadmates... and i won the most times!! yes! and the victim is always kai xun... haha... did a lot of disgusting stuff...
lol.. was just kidding la.. didn't noe they would think dirty. haha sorry JASMINE!...

den. hmm. wat else. next week heading for ngee ann poly for this visit. no need to go np!
haha. finally, once. anyways. we had some homework this week. have to get used to it.

hm. hoped i can at least get 9 points for my os and so i can ajc.
of cos if i score higher, i would raffles, but i hardly think it's possible.
haha. but i have to prove myself wrong, i can't regret it like during my psle days.
working hard, doing physics. and a maths.

mr pek!!!!!!!!

pom wang wa ja dai pob koon eek-krang
can't control myself.=(

2007-01-11T22:20:00.000+08:00

finally. school reopened. and yes.the fancy drill didn't turn out as we expected. 2 stupid sirs kept giving us negative comments. all the subjects poured in. just so weird la coswe have to throw away our holiday life.
urgh. no mood to blog la feel so fa. didn't go jog today. damn.

2007-01-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

i don't noe what to do .

2006-12-29T20:07:00.000+08:00

this year with full of npcc activities and full of shouting from me...
and shaun tagged me as the loudest person in np...
i guess the sec 1s surely agreed with that...
i wouldn't be wishing everyone a happy new year... cos i wouldnt be having a happy new year next year. o levels are coming.. and i'm so not looking forward to next year. i want to get into AJC... but after that trip to the gym with doreen.. erm.. looking at those horny AJC guys.. i'm having 2nd thoughts... maybe RJC? lol. nah. still AJC... next choice.. maybe. wells. still AJC.. it's near and my perfect ideal JC. had fancy drill today. i'm came late today and i got news that well. it's actually 11am.. instead of 12am.. and while i was listening to songs and slacking at home just now... i was like den rushed into the toilet. yea. we didn't have lunch today. and we pretty much completed the whole fancy drill thing. it's pretty okay. after all, the coming sec 1s wun noe a thing, they'll just stare in awe. HMM.=). well. i really want my parents to watch the performance.
1) dunno why. to prove i'm not worthless.
2)and yea.. that my trips to np wouldn't a really wasted one... at least i'll look smart and cool in those drills.
i've got my letter for my edusave award. and it kept coming back to me why i didn't put enuff effort inside that i'll still remain in top 10% and get my $250. oh wells. partly np's fault la OKAY?. anyways. feel it's gonna be a depressing year next year. no time for play and sigh. dun really wanna think about it. oh yea. i got pretty sun-burned today. urgh. feeling my neck burning hot.
it's time to lose weight. a full force one.SIGH.

2006-12-16T09:16:00.000+08:00

bastard and bitch.
you better watch out.

2006-12-07T09:10:00.000+08:00

had bbq ytd... before that went to library and showed her the hady mirza stall...
hello... i've patronized that stall from a long time ago...!
lol...
so... anw... i had real bad luck ytd!....
reached east coast about 5.30pm.
oh man... it's a super long walk....
i should complain to the MPs why bus stops are not built there....
that are thousands of people gg there everyday...
do u noe how hard it is to reach there.... without a car... so irritating. anyways... i rented a bike and rode over to C31 bbq pit... okay.. here goes... when i saw cynthia and her gang... i wanted to wave and say hi... and i fell from my bike... and not just any-o-how falling... i fall headfront... thankfully i was quick and had my hands supporting me anddefending that attack... cynthia and her gang was horrified. i guess. but it was so EMBARASSING.... my underwear was showing.. and alvin and WHO? else... were there too.. gosh!.... i kept asking them how i looked when i fall... anw... i didn't know i fall until i hit the ground.. and i was like OH NO!... tsk. SO embarassing... some teens were looking at me after i'm helped by my friends... i saw a girl giving me that... "Is she okay" look.. anw... it didn't really hurt until ifelt the pain.. and my knee had some abrasions... and cuts... and A blue-black. wow. i walked to the bbqpit...
too think my life was in danger before i've even reached my destination. i haven't got hurt for a long time... and really... it hurts... goodness. i almost wanted to cry. urgh. so... i limped over to the bbq pit.. with chengyi and yue xian giggling at me from the back(without knowing my injury)... and yea... and PRECIOUS nike bag scratched.
anw. my friends there saw the many cuts on my knee and told me to go wash.. i was really happy with that concern. so...off i went.. it wasn't that pain when it came into contact with water. and yea limped again.. had plasters. 4 in all. they started bbq-ing. and girls watched the guys playing freesbie(without me included), but i joined them later.. cos it was realy boring and left xiu hui alone. aww. and i joined beverley and samantha... but it really is partly becos of the sunset. gorgeous. i asked sam the BIG Q. i joined yee may and cynthia and took some pictures.=) pictures can't upload well. go to myfriendster profile if u wanna see.=)... wats worst... when it was evening. i played freesbie... i cut myself on a sharp thing on my left foot.
wow.. i tell u... it's really went deep in my foot... i can SO feel it.

blood blood. wash it... tried to use a satay stick to take out the sand. gross. i noe.
limped all the way. reached home at 10pm. limping like siao.

2006-12-07T08:57:00.000+08:00

yoyo. check out the pics for BANGKOK.
where fond memories lie....=)

m in the pic... and the lovely clothes near the muslim stall in Chatuchak

mum, me and grandma. dun give that puzzled look. rmb? i'm mixed.

(clockwise) BEEF SOUP, unfinished Chicken Rice, and TOM YUM!...HEAVENLY!I was sweating like hell... when i finished it!

okay. i know i look gross here. but i was sweating... feeling so oily all over.. but the tom yum soup never fails to perk me up! see me... tasting that delicious tom yum soup!

2006-12-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

Heads in Chung Cheng High School Yishun NPCC

2006-11-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

testing testing. hehe!

2006-11-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

check this out.. YO!
tyra banks spoofs of beyonce's deja vu!

woohoo. after a great shopping trip from bangkok.definitely ease off the pain on my neck. .. hope u love the music i've uploaded. it's cassie's Me and You. Pretty young girl.. done some research on her here and there. yea. thriving in hollywood. but not popular in singapore yet. anyways. love this song. so. yea. the trip to bangkok. was short but not sweet, of cos... who wouldn't want a hot, long holiday since the O LEVELS are coming next year?

we stayed at the hotel in the MBK centre. pretty cool huh?... makes the thought of shopping go really wild. for those who haven't been to MBK... wow.. you must really make a trip there someday. it can be argued as one of the most popular shopping centres in bangkok. and for all you girls who love shopping. it's heaven there. okay. the 4th and 5th levels are squeezed with shops overloaded with blouses,skirts,fashionstuff,shirts(wide range)?.. yes. and electronic stuff?... there's this section of the level where there's this huge group of "stalls" selling handphones, latest stuff and yea,ipods.

yummy foood in the food court. lovely chicken with briyani rice. yumm. but i didn't really eat that. too afraid I'll gain weight, so i focused on my meatball soup=(. hmm. on the third day, we went to Chatuchak. a sorta flea market... no.. a HUGE and I mean HUGEEEEEEEE sorta like pasar malam... normally open during the weekends. yes. and bangkok IS HOT!.... imagine squeezing among thousands of people wanting to a get a piece of the bargains there. you can get heat stroke there.. I rmb the first time i went there. oh well!... i couldn't complete shopping the whole place in one long afternn... one long HOT afternn.. blazing sun and all.

They sell all kinds of things there. food. YUMMY food. mouth-watering... and clothes... PLENTY of clothes... bras.. and panties. okay. lol. shoes!... cutie purses.. that are all the rage with teenage girls (i think) nowadays...(not that i dun wanna buy.. they're too fanciful).. okay. hmm. shirts.. wow... sexy... skimpy... mini skirts... watever.. you name it!. rrmb..how i settled for that tomy yum beef soup... and i would never let go. YUM...so we ordered another TOM YUM plain...(withoutbeef) soup.... even yummier!.. beef soup... LOVELY... HEEAVENLY... even better den singapore's thaksin beef soup(found in all leading departmental stores.. haha... just kidding..i mean at banquet normally)... so wow. i ate and ate and ate... grandma and sis couldn't take the heat...(!!! see what i mean...HOT)... so... we got back pretty early but not after my dad had a taste of that beef kuay teow soup.... he was all praises for it...

watch casino royale in the theatres. almost fell in love with daniel craig later that night.
he's so charming. -gulp-

oh yea...

so.. well.. of cos i wasn't really in a good mood cos we going back the next evening.
anws.
did some shppping too the morning later on. and err.. nvm..
so.
yes. bangkok international airport. was great. totally modern architecture.
uh-huh.
a real sad and mournful one indeed.
said bye bye to bangkok and my pr****~
got home at 12 am.
wow. next morning. fever. and bones ache. is it lovesickness or just the heat in chatuchak?

~details not included.xD note: not james bond if you were thinking.

2006-10-31T23:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BITHDAY SARAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dun worry. You'll get prettier and prettier everyday! LOL!!!!
OKAY OKAY.
DUN PUKE.
hahaha.
wow...
suddenly feel so happie and contented.
hope 31st Oct will never end.
dump away all the ungrateful people and accept all my present friends..
aww.
nenek. tho'(erm pardon me)..
i'm 15!

aww. i feel so old! are u sure i'm 15?!
argh! where's my youthful 14?!!!!
recalling all my past greatest happiest memories for the last 14 yrs.

=))))
okay.
actually had a pretty bad start.
that that mr pek. i wun scold vulgarities today.
embarassed for no reason.everytime i ask him question... he treat me like a fool.
who does he think he is?
anyway. went to make my ic. spend a long day at concourse and reached home pretty late.
yes.
aww.
want to spend this day till 12am.=)

2006-10-30T16:21:00.000+08:00

7 Random Facts About Me:
1)I'm a com addict, like most of high-schoolers.
2)i'm vain.=X
3)I've a good sense of fashion.HEY.my mum says so.=)
4)I'm hardworking?
5)I'm not a neat freak.
6)I cry at sentimental songs.
7)I like dark choc, rather den milk choc.

7 things that scare me:
1)D7 onwards on my report card
2)no GOONG2 with original cast!.. boo the production company!
3)cockcroaches. sometimes
n/a.

7 fav music presently:
1)ALL GOONG SONGS!
2)Just So You Know by Jesse McCartney
3) Right Where You Want Me by Jesse McCartney
4)That La La La by Rihanna
5)I'm Not A Girl Not Yet A Woman by Britney Spears
6)So Sick by NeYo
7)We Belong Together by Mariah Carey

7 people i fancy:
1)mum
2)sis
3)dad
4)the guy i like. no more.
5)friends?
n/a

7 things i say most:
1) wah lao
2)what the hell
3) the f word. oops!
4)what
n/a

7 things i like most:
1)my nike bagxD
2)creative mp3 player
3)cam
4)my com.
5)my specs.
6)scanner cum colour printer
7)my room!

7 people next to do this:
1)pam
2)visha
3)Shaun
4)doreen
5)xavier
6)kaixun
7)jiahui

2006-10-28T21:42:00.000+08:00

gotten my results. fell to 2nd in class.
very disappointing.
stupid kenny la!
hehe.
my level position dropped too.
well.
went visiting.
watched death note on friday.
got some disgusting facts about some people too.
and yea. i've gotten my new bag.

2006-10-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

awww.
i really miss rebecca now...
she's got real long hair...
and i really envy her life in america...
i've always wanted to live in those places.
anyways. her hair really grows fast.
haha.
yea exams over.
and i'm really bored out at home.
there's this marking days and well.
promotion day thingy.
and i'm like so happy there's no npcc activity for two weeks.
i guesss it's enough for me.
no wait.
yea gotta slog out during the next two months for npcc.
argh!
anyways. i dun need to come for npcc next yr.
sitting for o levels.
but anyway that's even worst.
well.
my ezcema dermatitis's getting worst.
still rmb during the nco camp last yr. where we really made contact with the sun.
wow.
the whole thing went dark.
really afraid. anyway it was npcc dat got me this problem.
haha. shouldn't say anymore.
so. yea really wish i could go overseas this hol.
my aunt is north america used to say she would bring me someday.
but nah. i guess now not.
want to get a new bag. .
really bored staying at home. and sleeping all day long.
damn irritating.
esp when the weather's so hot. and i sweat like.
argh. dun say anymore.
anyways i'm learning how to bake cookies soon.
my mum just bought a new oven and haha...
when i've learnt it and maybe hopefully fully convince my mum i could use the oven myself with her supervision den i could really bake some goodies and give my frens.
yes and for hari raya.
i will not burn the house down mum.
i'm pretty good in cooking okay.
see.. i make a good housewife.
oops.
okay. erm. yea. i did a rather good job in my home econs practical last yr.
i cooked pasta!
who can ever outwin me in that?
LOL
...
well. with that extra two weeks of school.
i dun see how i can ever outlive that.

2006-09-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

i've changed.
but am i really terrible after i've changed..
=(

2006-09-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

hmm.
well. seeing that the guy i like is living so well with his gf.
i'm not so elated.
haha!
no la.
i mean... who would be happy.
so wells. dun worry pals. u wun find his name on my links.
=)
hah. only selected few knows whoi really like. and it's been gg on for a few years. is it called true love. hmm.
really. i've liked him for close to 4 years.
stupid jb!
how did u get my blog!!

2006-09-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

this is sth PAMM asked me to do. well well.

Five things i would do if i were a millionaire.
1) firstly, go shopping. buy handbags, sling bags, go kbox, and splerch(how to speell) on clothes wear. girly ones.=S
2)buy my frens better presents for their birthdays.
3)change my hp to the latest model, with 3G, walkman installed.
4)buy a Creative mp4 player.
5)get people to bash up my enemies.xDD

Five bad habits...
1)lazy to study.(which i wanna change THE MOST)
2)eat like nobody's business.
well.. i've not much bad habits!

Five things u like doing.
1)studying
2)playing com.
3)having(really feeling) of having fun with myfrens and squadmates.
4)making np attendance.
5)having long long hols all to myself.

Five things you hate.
1) people misunderstanding me.
2)bullies.
3)guys who likes girls for their appearances.
4) perverts(including dirty-minded old men)
5)

Five things u will never, buy, use again...
huh... kinda absurd cos.. u'll never noe what happens tmr right..

Five things you regret doing...
1) not helping my parents in chores.
2)studying harder.
3)not ever thanking my parents enuff.
4)confronting bullies.
5)slim down more

Five fav toys or things?
1) my com+printer=p
2) myneoprints.
3)my best buds.
4)creative mp4 player
5)hp. for me to type SMSes.

Five people you choose to do this.
1)yiluan
2)kaixun
3)jialin
4)xinyu
5)visha

2006-09-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

sigh.
wow.
i haf pk course for two days. and it super boring and long.
woah.
they really drag a lot. if not the course can be completed in less den a day.
ya.
den stayed overnight for survivathon.
fun. to be staying in school.
alone us sec 3s without sec 1s and sec 2s.
more time to be together.
haha.
anyways.
alumnis and ex-CIs came back.
well.
studied with the other heads till 1.30am
den. woke up at 5.30am to study again.ate macs.
den. yucks. almost everyone started saying they had the urge to shit.
including me.xD
hahaha.
okie gross.
so. well. we waited for all the other schools to come.
heyy.
my sis's school is there. mfss.
haha. but too bad she's not in npcc and definitely not sec 3.
so. well.saw Chooi Chi's surname.
wow.
yar
den.
began. lihui's super crazy.
so.
yea. there were some people who were just plain jealous or sth.
started insulting us. get lost la. losers.
and yes. they lost like crazy.
so wells.came home with ------- --- ... wow. so shuang.
yawn.
i wanna sleep la.

2006-09-07T20:03:00.000+08:00

just can't seem to get over the death of the crocodile hunter.
sigh.
it just seems too weird.
and too unreal.
pk course .
so boring.
plus.
wah.
dunno what to say la.
blardy boring

2006-09-06T08:36:00.000+08:00

steve irwin died too suddenly.
suddenly, i just can't accept it.
it's just unbelievable. there wun be ongoing new shows of him.
watching his shows from primary5 till now.
he just left like that.

2006-09-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

[fort minor- remember the name]
no way, it's 100% torture.
-_-"
sigh.
firstly.
today damn s***s

crazay!

2006-09-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BOLLYWOOD MOVIES!

2006-09-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

wow. big day today.
went out at 9am. reached cineleisure earlier den xinyu! yes!!
good. if not she'll nag at me.
hmm. so we went to kbox. haha. waited outside. it opens at 11am! and we had to wait!...
had my bowl of green bean soup.
hot. good for the stomach. yea.
besides urmph*... ..
okie.
so we went up to level 4. den there was this big crowd.
wow.
suddenly i rmb-ed. there's till 8th floor.
when we got into the elevator. goodness!
there we so many young people of our age!
must be heading to kbox.
xinyu and me were smiling like....---
so.
yea.
although we paid $22.20.
but i still find it pricey ... after all i'm not eating the lunch and only drinking the ice lemon tea.
well. sang and sang. wow... i chose so many songs!!!!!!!!
poor xinyu.!
sorry.and majority of the time i was singing !...
and also she eating my share of that grilled chicken thingy!...
she had to rush to the toilet after eating two shares!
LOL!
sooo. yea. sang a lot.
majority i chose jolin's.=)
i love her songs.=)
infact i forgotten about the english songs!
until the last 15 min left.
so... haha. den. we went to heeren to see whetherwe could get a bag for xinyu's pipi.
erm.nah. found nth there.
but i saw a hairband i really like.
PRICE. $9.90
=).
anw. i didn't buy it.
so. we marched off to far east.
long walk.
and yea. we got her bag. erm. to say i contributed a lot in helping her find- is so true.
anw.
wow. den i tried a $75.80 dress. which is TOO GORGEOUS.
though it's too low-cut.
BUT I LOVE IT! AND IT REALLY MATCHES THE HAIRBAND!
wow.
but it's too pricey!
really gorgeous and trendy.
and YES. i've really got TASTE. that dress just arrived this morning! the latest. and its wat the koreans are wearing.
even the HIGH TASTE xinyu also says it's nice on me.=)))
haha. aww. iwould so the centre of attraction. and i dun look fat in it!
haha.
okie.
so....xinyu was happy about the bag.
weleft far east. and went back to heeren.
shit. i saw benjamin,sugih and the gang there.
yucks. i was like"oh shit".
i will never forget those bunch of f-ing shit people.
"go ta hell. now dat i've changed. there's no way u can say anything about me.
infact i'm more gorgeous den YOU SUCKERS!"
nvm. you all wun under the past i had.
so.
sry for being vulgar. but seriously some people are meant to be scolded.
some people just DESERVES IT.
so.hmm.
well
i still went back to heeren and after a big consideration. i bought that 10 bucks hairband.
WOW.
i can't believe i spent so much money on a hairband.reached home at 6.
-tired- sorry dad and mum.
hmm.

2006-08-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

[listening to Stars Are Blind]
wow. SOOOOOO great that my comp is actually repaired. now i can do anything i want in MY ROOM!
Without my sis complaining.
today was teachers day. wow. cried when i saw that movie with chen liping.
erm. my nose was red. and people and were looking at me like. ... ermp. dot dot dot.
argh nvm.
so. yea. i went out with pam.
wow. stomach hurts*.
pam was rather cold. well.d unoo whether she feels bored with me?
erm.
so.. we shopped the whole of basement of far east plaza. okie. she didn't get her earrings.
but i got my hairband.=)
okie. well. saw cyn,peggie.yee may and beaver twice!WOW!
practically incidence. cyn was rather crazy about it. hahas. glad about that. -smiles sheepishly-
oh yea. den got my progress card. -so called card- though it was in paper form.-_-"
okie. so. improved a lot in overall. compared to term 1.
but i need to be better. infact i wasn't satisfied AT ALL with the whole result thing.my e maths!
argh.
damn.ARGH..!!!!!!!!!
S.O.S. PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME.........WHY YOU MAKIN IT HARD......XD
LOOKING FOR THE REST OF MEE.... HAHAHA!
i rawking kbox tmr with xinyu. xD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-22T09:01:00.000+08:00

yeah. received some good news ytd.
but whole mood was destroyed by some pathetic, immature sec 1.
he's not even 13 yet and he wants to tok shit with me.
curse and swear man...
but i really think np took up a lot of my studying time.
i'm too devoted. haha.
well. ... gonna put my thoughts into studying now..
i see the reluctancy in me.
sigh.
haven't gone out for a long long time.
really.
i'm so tired. and pissed with sch ... and i really can't wait for sch to end.
Kelly clarkson's WALK AWAY...
shows a pissed woman who gets fed-up of sth but just walks away.
well. i should do this with some sick ppl.
oh well.
got a whole load of things to say.. but just. well... dunno what to say.
sigh...
badmood-ding now.
sigh/
i'm so tired. really very tired.
oh wells.
i need a new look on boys.. who are just ignorant. and insensitive.
i should just be homosexual.
well. just kidding of cos.
oh wells.
i'm feelin so stressed-up with my life. family who can't be more understanding. and frens.

I'm BACK.

2006-07-20T17:22:00.000+08:00

boy... was it a short holiday...
slackin away... after a few weeks of holiday...
copying hw...
hmmm...
racial harmony day tmr...
and i can't decide what i wanna wear...
haiz.

tiring week=tiring month

2006-06-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

wow.
sec 3s npcc sure have a tough time.
anywayz.
this holiday ain't no holiday. haf npcc activities throughout..
totally uninteresting and sick of 'em.
SIGH.
time really flies.
it's already the end of the 3rd week.
attended this LMSC course.
for NCOs.
yea us.
well.
wasn't much of an interesting thingy.
in fact totally tiring.
imagining waking up the 5am.
and reaching the mrt at 5.45am!
the earliest i've been to an NPCC meeting.(course i mean)
okay.
so it's at chung cheng main. which is at goodman rd.
SIGH.
EH. tiring okay.
cannot tahan already.
THE WORST IS.
i haven't even finished with my homework!..
including my geography project!
shucks. and my revision!...
and now it reminds me of the maths tests on the first week!
UH-OH!
SIGH!
high expectations high expectations.!
NCO CAMP NEXT WEEK!
arggh... i shouldn't even think of it.!!!!!!!
practically sick of thinking of all this i haf to face...
and repeatedly having them in my mind!
atc camp.!
ARGGGHHH!
I SHOULD JUST DISAPPEAR FROM EARTH !!!!!!!!!!

HOTS.

2006-06-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

today.
well.
went to my new home.
yea rather spacious..
in fact.. i've got a clear idea of how i want my room to be..
modern. romantic. the way i want . ahaha.
okay. so maybe not romantic. but.. really nice.
soo. there i was sitting by that ceiling-to-wall window...
gazing at the scenery...
watching the rain..
listening to PERFECT..
erm. okay.
soo.
yarr.. got to the nearby 7 eleven.
den.. got the instant noodles.. ate as we walked.
and got a pkt of mee goreng for mum.
soo. went to woodlands..
pizza was really filling. ewww. too much food makes me sick sometimes.
okay.
den i thought... that this waiter-spiky-haired-guy got the hots for me.
since it really shocked me.. at how it stared at me when he delivered that spaghetti.
okay. so maybe NOT.
what am i toking?. argh. am i crazy or WHAT?!
okay. soo.
den.
well.
went to the specs shop.
got my red-matallic specs. okay rather nice i can say...=)..
soo i was suspecting sth. dunno why..
is it my sixth sense.?
aww.
soo.
discovered that my sixth sense was quite true...
since even my mum told me abt it!!!
okay. so... 26 AND 15...
and for a moment...i actually thought he was 30+++
N-O WAY!

tiring day though the places we went were GREAT..

2006-06-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

well well. set off early for my mum's relatives' wedding.
woah. so far the only weddings i've been were muslims.
this one was pretty grand.
air-conditioned hall in community centre. nicee...
yummy food.
GOODNESS!. no wonder i couldn't control myself.
steak beef.
chicken.
ice jelly!!!!!!!!!!!!
too much delicacies.
dun worry.. i didn't eat rice.
and not too much of those i've listed.
but but. i can't help feeling guilty. AND SHUCKS! i've gained weight!
damn hard to maintain.
GYM GYM. JOGGING.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M GONNA WORK ON MY FIGURE.
well.den.. went to suntec city for the pc show.
boy was i tempted to get the creative ZEN mp3 and those laptops!!
the finger-print security and the motion eye camera.
but i've been eyeing the VAIO one lar.
well well.
den.
yarr... BLARDY CROWDED.
super i can tell you...
headache.
foul mood.
anyw.. got to sentosa. so many people..
weekends will always be weekends wouldn't they..?
okie
den.. woah.. saw those condos and bungalows they've built in sentosa. with those fanciful street names.
SENTOSA COVE.
hmm. makes me think of CAVE.
ahah. but it's way way way totally different from CAVE la...
the houses are way gorgeous!!!!
totally like branded. designer houses!
woah... LIKE MY DREAM HOUSE.
looks nicely den the one i'm moving to la..
though concept alike.
honest larr. it's like the BILLIONAIRES could park the boats... no no.. argh.. wats the word...prestigious boats okay?.,. ahha
and den slip into the houses. honest larr.. like SO GORGEOUS. even the best chalets in east coast or pasir ris cannot beat...
no no! can't be compared!!!!!
woah. i tell you.. it's so modern. my dream home.
woah...
argghh!!!!!!!!!!!!
i haf to work harder to get those houses!..
OH YEA!
OKAY AHAH.!
denn.
hmm. went to take the sky tower. pretty scenery.
10 bucks per 7 mins. =(
okay. den.drank some stuff at coffee bean.
3 cups cost $13.80.
exorbitant IS THE WORD.
okay . but beautiful scenery. we're paying for the scenery too.
soo.
went to the indonesian restaurant to eat.
yar./
ordered my avocado juice. okay.
sleep sleeppyy. lala. someone ask me out.hahahahaha.
wat am i thinking.
-__-"

2006-06-03T09:20:00.000+08:00

arrghh.
soo boredd..
ytd went for rehearsal...
yea... now den i realised dat i lurve the band's music for that opening ceremony thingy.
yawwnn.
the whole starting. marching to the whole ending thing was quite okay. i realised.
at least it's better den ATC.
woah. almost died there okay..
soo.
den it was 2 hrs break.
for us privileged sec3s of cos.
wahaha.
nahla.. who wun wanna go home?...
okay. den went to walk around. with syahidah and joan.
ate instant noodles. and big gulp.
BOY did i realised it was soooooooo big...
still can't believe i ate at the playground. wif ben and weiqin fooling arnd like kids.
wateverr. well. can't believe russell isn't in np anymore.hmmmx. still rmb-ed how i picked on him.XD
so. got to khatib central.
got to macs. found our large group of npcc cadets there. with yh sir.
okay. and they were there toking about image image image.
oh yea...
righhttt.
so. guess the only funny part was how wei xuan stared at the sexy butt on that mac screen.
awwww. guysss...
soo.. well. got back for meeting.
nco camp.
yea.
sooo..well well.
until 4++pm okay.
thought i could wait for sec1s to do the cadet service sheet thingy.
but.
in the end ... we all waited.
which was like.
okay...nvm.
soo..
poor sec3s had to do footdrill.
and i hope... it wasn't to wait for me..well.
okay okay.
i missed out one thing. dat lovesick thing.
argh. nvm.WAHAHAHAHAHA!
Byebye. going out for breakfast.sighh

31/5/06

2006-06-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

today.
npcc activity.
quite lag. but i like it la.=)
haha. collecting money and admin stuff all the way. den was the meeting of Passing Out Parade.
can't say details or else sec4s will find out.=)
okayz.
so. ermpz.
yea. wah when i collected the money.
there were 3 people's money missing from it.
woah scare me!
luckily i checked and found out they didn't pay!
wah.! make my job so difficult.
told them how many times to pay oreadY!
well well.
okay. moving house.
very happy about it.
i must get my VAIO laptop! awww!
well anyway. my hols are not gonna be a good one.
too much activities and stressing out to do.
plus i need to revise homework.
OH MAN!
LIKE I LIKE IT.....

results

2006-05-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

okay. topped the class.
well well.
honest.
it's just expressing my feelings.. not showing off or anything.
well.
i still think i did very badly.
okay.
hmmm...
haiz.
this holidays ain't gonna be dat fun.
somehow. it's soooo what i think...
sigh.
more quarrels following up.
bad bad.

2006-04-30T09:08:00.000+08:00

oooh. my 2nd blog.
a better one. cheers.=)